Cursed Sunshine

In this ocean of
longing
for your coming
I am
just a microscopic fish
-silent, calm and sometimes
colorful.
You send light to my ocean
and water to my universe
you bring joy to this waiting
and meaning to these waves.
But some days more then other
I miss you
and I curse the water you send
and the sunshine that keep us apart
- you are inside me
but I want you next to me
I want you to take one human form
and come to me
not just as a light
I remember the promised "island" of loneliness
that you showed me,
and I know that I am week and
foolish for being just a transparent fish
that cries for your colors.

Drugo nebo

Izgrebana ljubovta mi ja vrati vo cetiri sabajle. Bez da zvonish i tropnesh na vrata, preku prozor ja frli i izbega. Ne znaes ili ne sakas da znaes deka za zidot me zalepi taa ljubov sto ja frli kako vrel kosten nazad vo moite race. Cekoris sega sam niz tunelite na moite sonishta barajki mesto za son. Ne ke najdes mesto za pokoj ni vo sonot mi ni vo sonot si . Pobaraj drugo nebo za proshka. 

After the typhoon

I entered the garden naked

All day picking up tomatoes

Vrzani

 Vrzani za drvoto na kopnezot milion i nesto godini stoime ispraveni...a sega eden do drug kako za prv pat, kako stranci...

Nemav vozduh dovolno za vozdiv i pogled vo tvoeto more vo koe se nauchiv da plivam koga zaboraviv deka postojam. Na milimetri podaleku od moeto ludilo stois ti so izgubena memorija i izvalkani sonishta. Doaga nekoja druga" jas "da me zameni vo tie momenti na poraz pred realnosta, i glumi ludilo, glumi polosho od koga i da e deka i mene me nema. Begam jas, vistinskata jas, begam vo posigurni hodnici so izlez na more i svez vozduh. Tamu sme nie pak cisti i tivki, kakvi sto bevme koga dojodovme za prv pat na ovaa scena. Te dopiram so vozdishka i se vpivam vo tvoeto telo. Blizu sme do moreto vo koe prestanavme da postoime za svetot a pochnavme da postoime vo sebe i za nas. Tolku mnogu raboti imam da ti kazam...pominati stoletija bez tebe...so eden pogled te zalazuvam i pak begam nazad vo dupkite na realnosta.Tuka stoime jas i ti kako stranci.., kako dvajca koi nemaat mnogu da si kazat. Jas predavnik na sebe si, ti izpraznet bunar vo moreto od nasheto minato. Tamu sum i jas vo taa praznina pochivam, no nemam hrabrost da ti kazam, nemam hrabrost da priznaam. Ke se napolni bunarot eden den so nashata praznina i ke isplivam jas na tvojata povrshina.Ke bide toa poskoro odkolku sto ochekuvash. Pochekaj... 

the invisible

Sculpting the invisible 

a street artist disappeared before

I drop my coins in his hat.

some Rumi (again)

THE AWAKENING

In the early dawn of happiness
you gave me three kisses
so that I would wake up
to this moment of love

I tried to remember in my heart
what I’d dreamt about
during the night
before I became aware 
of this moving 
of life

I found my dreams 
but the moon took me away
It lifted me up to the firmament
and suspended me there
I saw how my heart had fallen
on your path
singing a song

Between my love and my heart
things were happening which
slowly slowly 
made me recall everything

You amuse me with your touch
although I can’t see your hands.
You have kissed me with tenderness
although I haven’t seen your lips
You are hidden from me.

But it is you who keeps me alive

Perhaps the time will come
when you will tire of kisses
I shall be happy 
even for insults from you
I only ask that you 
keep some attention on me.

Endless

I am walking fast 

to the restless arms

of your love

There is nothing 

that can stop this

wild chasing 

that started between 

my universe of dreams

and

your Universe of Creation

In all sleepless nights

I stretch my hands 

to embrace you

In all shinny noons 

you send warm silk

 to cover me with joy

and remind me of your name

You are never too far

even between these letters 

your shadow lights their meaning

and bring back your love to me

to the place where it belongs-

again and again

It has been a long time

Falling from the sky

straight to my arms

-your sunshine under my 

eyelashes-

there you choose to rest for a while

You smile just as I saw you 

the first time

we all know that smile 

but somehow forgot

and you bring it on your clouds in a rainy day

in  my forest of expectations. 

I need no umbrella to cover this joy

you come as I was crying 

and lift me up to your lips

now I know where I belong

It has been a long time...

since you called my name

it was the first time for me

to hear it in this narrow path Im walking.

Further then this air of illusion 

you sleep between the stars

and light the Universe. 

There I also belong

I know now...

it has been a long time... 

All the way around

I can't forget

I only regret-

for being so quiet,

for being so loud 

for being so cold,

for being so warm...

I can't forget 

I only regret-

for talking for hours

for walking with days

-not straight to you heart

but all the way around.

I can't forget,

I only regret-

for being so stubborn 

and never having any regrets! 

I can't regret

I and how could I ever forget

your presence and 

the sweet-bitter taste of your 

whispers in the night

and those pause you made,

in which you buried all the words

you needed to say.

Really,

I can't forget! 

Desert of Love

EDNA TROSHKA LJUBOV NEMAM

CELATA JA  RAZDADOV ZA GROSH ILI DVA

I EVE SEGA CELATA MI SE VRAKA-

PUSTINA OD LJUBOV OKOLU MENE

SAMA VO NEA

KAKO IZVOR KOJ SE KAE STO

NE E SAMO EDNO ZRNO PESOK

VO TAA PUSTINA. 

modern haiku

欲しい 思い出、友達、

ステキな恋人 欲しい とにかく　

とりあえず　休みをください

Oscillation

I'll reserve a valley for us on the moon

and there I'll wait for you until the Sun rises 

I'll reserve a tree for us on the moon

and under we'll be kissing till the Moon 

crosses the Earth 

I'll reserve a special place for us

a secret place between the stars

where you'll be able to see me

as I am

equal to the Stars

brighter then the Moon

warmer then the Sun

and still oscillating on this Earth

only for You! 

Pale white

Green after red 

and yellow after blue
wherever you go
all the colors follow you

And I am so simple
-pale white
so you can't see me
right?

I am there-
where ever you go
I follow,
when you sleep
I color your dream

Pale white as a fog
or a ghost
pale white
as the color you
happen to ignore most.

The Threefold Path by Richard Rose

I come to you as a man selling air,
And you will think twice at the offer and price,
And you will argue that nothing is there,
Although we know that it is - everywhere.

I bring a formula largely untold, -
Of forces mixed with between and betwixt.
And only seen when allowed to unfold.
And better felt when the body is cold.

I have a map to the home of the soul,
Beyond the mind is a golden find, -
The paradox is a guide to the goal, -
Though doubt is sacred, each man is the Whole.

Bridge

Bridge

You don’t let me pass through...
Its night and I beg you
-please …
you don’t let me pass through…
to the other side of the bridge
where you stand to come
and share the moon with you...
Then why did you put the bridge between us?
Isn’t the bridge a road that connects,
Not a deadly rope that sets apart?
Its night and I’m cold,
My whispers cross the bridge to reach you..
but, just a cold air from the other side of the
bridge comes back like an answer…
Why did you put the bridge between us?

And when you are close to me its like nothing else in the world

When We walk
we took same steps
-some steps that brings us closer
When we talk
we choose same words
-some words that takes us further
when we think
we do same mistakes
-some mistakes that stand between us


Nothing is the same
for me anymore
since you entered
this labyrinth of longing
I know how to go out
from here but I don't wanna
leave without you
Every inch that you move
its an earthquake
every slight change in your voice
its a conclusion


And when you are close to me its like nothing else in the World

Mozes da me drzis za raka uste malku
nema da se potrosham
mozes da me poglednes vo oci
barem ednas nema da isceznam
Mozes da ostanes uste malku
Nema da te ukradam
Bez kopnezi I nadezi
anemichna I zbuneta
pred tebe stojam
napravi nesto so mene …
Podadena, prodadena, podarena
pred tebe stojam
napravi nesto so mene.

Izmamena, osamena , razdadena
Pred tebe stojam
no ne stoime na isto mesto cinam -
jas pred tebe sum
a ti nekade daleku -
izguben, istroshen, razdaden nasekade
nekade se barash…
kako da ne znaes deka
veke odamna vo mene si preselen

Dragon

Like a dragon with spread wings
you attack my thoughts
weak and naive they surrender
without resistance
Like a dragon without home
you fall a sleep in me every night -
sleepless and lonely
I keep your dream from winds
Like a dragon you wake up
like an angel you sleep
like water you fled me

There is some sadness

There is some sadness in that stone
beyond the form and the
intention of the sculptor ...
Did he waited too much
to be touched
or wanted to remain one whole with the mountain?

There is some sadness
in that stone..

Different

I measured my heart today
And realized its perfect size
to fit you in
No space for anything else
For anybody else
I measured my heart today
And it’s lighter than it was
It’s brighter than it was
It’s bigger than it was
I measured my heart today
Just to check is it still here
Cause I feel strange lately…
Can’t hear my fears,
Can’t measure the beats
Can’t connect with the brain…
I measured my heart today
And guess what
Everything is on the same place
as before
Just it feels different…